Alexisonfire’s Wade MacNeil talks struggle with addiction, experience in rehab

'I've never spoken about it in any public way because I felt guilty and ashamed.'

Alexisonfire guitarist Wade MacNeil has opened up about his struggle with addiction, his experience in rehab, and how he’s in a better place now.

MacNeil shared a photograph from August 4th, 2019 on Instagram where he appears to have a glass of alcohol in hand on an airplane. The picture is captioned, “drunk. miserable. depressed.” The post then goes on to detail Macneil’s experience in rehab the day after the band’s winter tour ended in January. “I’ve struggled with addiction issues and depression for a long time,” MacNeil explains. “I’ve never spoken about it in any public way because I felt guilty and ashamed. Not being able to control that aspect of my life caused so much pain and sadness.”

Now, MacNeil has revealed that he’s doing better after his “life-changing” experience in rehab. “I feel ok in my own skin for maybe the first time in my life. I actually woke up happy this morning…IT’S FUCKED!”

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drunk. miserable. depressed. august 4, 2019 The day after the alexis tour ended in January I went to rehab. I’ve struggled with addiction issues and depression for a long time. I’ve never spoken about it in any public way because I felt guilty and ashamed. Not being able to control that aspect of my life caused so much pain and sadness. Last year I was in hell. But, the last few months in treatment have been a life changing experience. I was finally able to look at all the things I’d been stuffing down and numbing out for years. I feel ok in my own skin for maybe the first time in my life. I actually woke up happy this morning…IT’S FUCKED! I wanted to share this because I’ve got some hope now and I haven’t had that for a very long time. Seems like we all could use a little more hope in these weird days. So, I thought it’s time to get real with everybody. “There’s a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.” Love, Wade.

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